So I wrote about the fact that I was going back to the clinic on a bit of a fact-finding mission. And that’s exactly what I did. I’d made a point of booking to see the consultant that I’d really liked when I was freezing my eggs. I didn’t just trust her from a medical perspective, but from an emotional one. (She’s the one that I cried on in all of my first three consultations.) I felt like she totally understood my reasons for freezing my eggs, and she was really positive about what I was doing.
And, when I saw her, I felt totally vindicated — for a number of reasons. I explained why I was there, that I wanted to see where things were at, and then make a decision on what I wanted to do. I basically wanted her to tell me whether I needed to make a decision there and then, or could put it off for a little longer.
Now, the clinic had insisted on booking me in for a scan (best part of £200) and a protocol consultation (best part of £200) and I was pretty sure I’d need a blood test to test for levels of AMH, (Anti-Mullerian Hormone, a good indicator of what your ovarian reserve and thus fertility is like) which would be another £100. But after I’d explained why I was there, she immediately said to me “Well we don’t need to do a consultation today. Let’s do a scan, get your AMH levels tested and then if you need to pay for a consultation to discuss the protocol but we don’t need to do that now.”
It was such a small thing. But it made me feel that someone wasn’t taking me – and my wallet – for granted, and that was really important. Yeah, yeah, blah, blah, I can hear you thinking “Cut. To. The. Chase. What happened?”
So what happened was this: my scan looked normal and healthy; the bloodflow to my uterus and ovaries looked good — although slightly weaker on the left hand side than the right but nothing concerning; there were eight follicles on the right hand side and five on the left; basically everything looked pretty much how it had done a few years back with no sign of endometriosis, or fibroids, or anything untoward.
I had my AMH levels tested, and this is the email my consultant sent after she got the results:
As you can see AMH is 12.1 pmol/L while in 2013 was 11.8 pmol/L.
So it is exactly the same. I am very satisfied as this didn’t decline so you can wait a little bit taking any decision regarding next steps.
I’m delighted – of course I am, this is brilliant news. It’s news that gives me permission to procrastinate, news that means I don’t have to rush into trying to get pregnant on my own, news that means that there’s still a chance — however slim, that my hypothetical child might have a father around from birth.
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Really pleased I’ve found your blog!
I made the decision(after a pretty crappy breakup) earlier this year to freeze my eggs. It was a very emotional time and I felt very alone in the world of fertility, where I assumed everyone at the clinic had the support of a partner, so I decided to start write a blog to tell my story. Hopefully it will help others so they know they’re not alone.
It’d be great if you’d read my story so far…..very early days!
Hello, thanks for reading, will take a look at your blog – good luck with it all – there are more of us out there than you think!